He just looks so grown up to me in this picture. Its moments like these that I sit back and wonder where my baby went. Now that we are home and things are settling down a little bit more I sometimes think he should still be that little boy that he was before he was diagnosed. But then I realize it has been a whole year and he has grown a ton, not just physically but he has also matured more because of all he has had to go through.
And what's two meals without two deserts?
I also took him to a movie this week. A new theater opened just down the street from my parents so we decided to check it out. He chose to see Dolphin Tale in 3D. He loves going to movies so he was so excited to go. I love that I can take him to some of his favorite places again and do things he used to enjoy doing before cancer took over our lives.
On our way home we were talking about Skyler's game room. He asked me "Mom when I go to heaven will all my games be up there waiting for me?" I told him they probably would and he said "Sweet heaven is awesome!" I also told him that in heaven there isnt any cancer or owies. You should have seen the look on his face when I told him that, he was so happy. He was even happier when I told him that there are no central lines or pokies there either. It was the kind of happy like when you just tell your child they are going to Disneyland or something exciting like that. He then looked up to the sky and smiled really big. Talking about heaven with Skyler isnt an easy thing to do anymore. I have always talked openly with him about heaven because he knows that's where his daddy is and when he misses him he askes alot of questions. I get choked up even thinking about it now. Sometimes I wish I lived back in that world where ignorance is bliss and parents out living their children wasnt a possibility. As hard as it is being thrown into this world of cancer, it has taught me just how lucky I am that I get the opportunity to take him to the movies or out to eat. Even the littlest things and moments I cherish even more now.
Love you Skyler!